I have an uneasy premonition for the year to come. Although not yet apparent, my easy continuance of poor habits from last year have once again manifest themselves into my daily (lack of) routine. I hoped that living alone would force me to come to terms with having to be alone sometimes. But as it turns out, it thus far has only led me to rely even more on my line sisters to keep me company.
Already, I have disappointed myself with not following through on the many promises I made when "today," was "tomorrow." But, I want to focus on the positives. My place is finally settled in. I slept by myself for the second night in a row. (For anyone who doesn't know, I've never really slept alone before and I'm very scared of the dark lol.) I woke up at 8:30AM, made myself breakfast and am now blogging. It sounds pretty mundane, but these are mini accomplishments for me and I'm going to take pride in them and continue to build on the little things to make for greater habits.
All in all, I am taking a more somber approach to this school year. I do not radiate the impenetrable positivity I had last year, because it obviously didn't do me much good. But I now find a balance between being realistic, hopeful, and being ready to put in work.
Cheers, everyone. Good luck. May all of our expectations and dreams come within reach this year.
Vicki.
Ok on a side note, this contradicts the whole focusing on positive vibes thing but I have to rant. I WANT MY STUFF BACK ASSHOLE. Still missing my extension cord, glasses, alarm clock and various textbooks. Just take a second to look for my shit and I'll be out of your life for good... Jesus. Ok bye.
